Simple life

At the moment I am trying to figure out how I want to live (my life). I know it is impossible to determine now what I am going to do for the rest of my life, but I would like to give myself a nudge in the right direction.
Am I not stressing anymore? Not at all! The last month has been really stressful and confusing for me. What if this was not what I am living for. What if I am doing a step in the opposite direction? What if I am really walking back while thinking I go forward?
While trying not to freak out, all these questions really freaked me out. But after putting every thought in the right place, every feeling in the right box with the right label ‘when to pull out’, I feel at peace. Yesterday, I did not worry, I was not paranoia or anything. I felt free.
Wow. That was an amazing feeling. I have never felt that free. I have never felt so happy, so complete. It felt weird to not stress about anything, not worry. But I just observed myself. I did not stress, got paranoia or started worrying.

So what did I find out? Firstly, I like to be free. I like to be me. I understand now that I do not need the newest phone, bag or clothes to be happy. To be happy, I need just me. Maybe a cup of tea, maybe a ray of sunshine. Maybe a hug. Maybe a shoulder to cry on. But I can be happy with the simple things that life has to offer. The simple things we’re amazed at when we were younger, but we take for granted now.

I am so glad for all the opportunities I get in life. And I will enjoy every second of them.

Dead, dead, death.

So this blog has been really dead. And because I can't accept that fact, I'm going to start again! I'll try to do 2 updates per week, maybe 3 if I have enough to tell! I don't have that much followers, but I need to get all my thoughts out of my head and write everything down somewhere.

Things that have changed:
- Everything

So at the moment I live in Sundsvall, where I work on a project for the university (Miduniversitetet) here. However, I'll be moving back to Amsterdam on the 20th of januari, which means a lot of new pictures of Amsterdam when I'm back, because so much has changed and I love acting like a tourist!
Next to my project, I'm also studying Swedish, and I'm going to try to keep my Swedish up when I'm back in Holland. Tomorrow I have my final test, so I hope I'll pass!

Until the end of januari, I'll be still posting updates about my traveling (in Dutch) on this website.

Next post will be about a few more updates and snow! (Because there is still no snow here, and it irritates me)

Thank you so much for reading!

Busy, busy frigging life.

Yeah.
I'm having a lot of exams at the moment, and this weekend we're having this huge discount thing at MediaMarkt. So if I don't post now, I won't post this month, and I promised myself to post more.

At the moment I try to live at home more, and improve my style and such, which is kind of weird for me, since I'm at an almost boys-only school. When you brush your hair, everyone is thrilled, imagine how everyone looks when you have make-up on :P
So well, because I had/have a lot to do, my room is kind of messy. I tried to get myself in the right direction and cheer me a bit up, so I decided it's time for flowers!

When this semester is over, I only have the weekend off. Or, that's more like 'I'm supposed to have the weekend off'. But nooo, MediaMarkt decided to have a big discount circus this weekend, so I'm working about 25 hours in 3 days. I won't have any sleep or look pretty, so please don't visit ^~^
Then Monday the new semester is starting, but I don't have any idea what I should do then. The whole day is filed under 'project', but none of us have had an e-mail when's starting what, so I hope I can have a day off in that week to charge my batteries.

Oh, and my hamster is kind of pissed at me because I cleaned up his cage, so sorry if this posts sounds a bit cantankerous, he has been makng a lot of noise for the whole night, so I think I've only slept 4 hours. (I need 8, minimum!!!)

Done some shopping

So, as the titel suggest, I didn't get myself to do less shopping than normal. I just love to have new stuff :3

Shoes are from the brand Dune, they sell awesome shoes, not to expensive and good quality ^-^

First post! (for the new year)

So, this week has been kind of weird.
When I posted my last post, I was having a bit of problems with my wrist. And it only got worse! I went to the doctor, and he gave me some pills (so I can programm, I just have to give it a rest, but I have to program for school!). When I took them, I was so enthousiastic! I really wanted to do some stuff ^-^ But when I swallowed the pill, half an hour later, half of my hand was swollen. I've took some pictures :3 (In case the doctor wouldn't believe me). Well, long story short, I'm still taking the pills, and luckily, I'm not allergic to them ^w^



(it was a bit worse than this, but my (fast) mobile photo's won't show that :3 It hurt really bad . . )

At school, I'm really busy now. But I've decided I will stay home more, and hope my boyfriend will come over at my house (now I'm almost constantly traveling to his *v*)!

So yeah!
Oh, and my new year's resolutions are going great, to this point <3

Back! & New Year's Resolutions

Wow. This totally feels so lame. Constantly being 'back'. I seriously wanted to post for a loooonngg time but school and work are so busy!
New things! I've changed my haircolor, it's now going towards blonde, and I want it to be white (and then I'll add a stripe of brown in it <3). + I have this 'nail kit' from Konad which is awesome! So that's why my nails look more 'perfect' than they did before. I only need to find my camera('s), I lost them somewhere in my room. Maybe my hamster ate them. I think I feed him enough :3

So yay! A few pictures ^-^'







New Year's Resolutions!

Before I post them: These are my solutions, and these are how I like them. So don't say stupid things like: Ughh, you should do this or that :/

- Save more money
If I don't spend that much money on clothes I won't even wear/wear not so much, I can buy more/better things I will like longer ^-^ + I need to save for school!
- Lose 5 kilo/10 pounds
I want to have a body like Megan Fox! I love her body. I'm going to excersise more, buy a Wii and tan my body <3
- Spend more time with myself
Do things I want to do, pick up some old hobby's, don't stress to much about everything, one day, it will cost your heart. (And I already had a heartattack this morning from the fireworks :/)
- Eat healthier and take care of my body
If I eat healthier, I feel better and then I'll do more in one day ^-^
- Make school work and doing an internship abroad
I'm really scared to go abroad for an internship. I won't know anyone so I'm scared I'll just wuss out and don't say a thing and sit behind my computer the whole day (Oh, wait, that's how I live :/)

And a few things more, I guess.

I think that's the end of the long post! I will post in the new year with al the buys I did the last month, and some kind of sales post, because I have a lot of things that don't fit me, or that I just don't wear :3

Feuteu

So yeah!

The pictures! xD