Differences and silence

At the moment, I work a lot under stress. I try to get all my deadlines on time, but it’s hard. I try to live my life and still have a good time, go to parties and eat with friends.
Right now, everything is a bit more livable then when I would be in Holland. In Holland I also have 12-20 hours of work per week, I can put those hours now in friends, relaxing and parties.
I just hope I can keep being relaxed when I’m back. I’m just afraid that I will not be able to keep this rhythm, and keep being me.
When I arrived in Sweden, I was really confused. It was so weird and new for me to have time to don’t do anything. Just sit there and be all on myself. Accept the silence, be right here, right now. I’ve now adapted to the silence, the rest I get and everything what is normal here. The first week, I cried. I was confused, I didn’t even know I had that many thoughts going on in my head. The second week was better, but it was not until the fourth week here that I realized that I should start living like this. Take life easy, and live life now. Don’t wait until whatever goal you want to reach. What do you want to do? What do you want to explore, to discover? Start planning those exact things today! Nothing is impossible, but I’m still trying to figure out how to get everything in my schedule ;)

I want to write more about being with silence, but I haven't figured out how, yet.